What’s Hidden in Your Car Boot?

The hidden energetic weight behind your baseline level of consciousness

If you’ve read The Garage of Consciousness, then you’ll know I love a car metaphor. It’s just too useful. It explains things in a way that feels tangible rather than abstract, and when we’re talking about something as slippery as consciousness or energy, we need something solid to hold on to.

So this piece sits in the same family as that one, but it goes a level deeper.

Because it’s one thing to talk about what car you’re driving. It’s another thing entirely to look at what’s actually inside it.

Your Baseline Level of Consciousness Isn’t the Whole Picture

You can take a reading of someone’s baseline level of consciousness. I use the same 0–1000 scale that shows up in different models – Dr. David R. Hawkins uses it in the Map of Consciousness, Frederick Dodson uses it in Levels of Energy, and it’s become quite a common framework.

So let’s say you take a reading and you calibrate at 300.

That tells you something useful. It gives you a sense of where you sit overall. But unless you understand what is actually going on inside you energetically, that number only takes you so far.

It’s a bit like standing outside a car and judging it purely by how low it sits. Yes, you can see the ride height. Yes, you can observe that it struggles over speed bumps. But you don’t yet know why.

And without knowing why, you’re limited in what you can do about it.

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The Gold Bullion in the Boot

Let’s go back to the car.

Imagine you’ve got a vehicle that feels sluggish. It’s riding really low. Every time you go over a bump, you wince because you can hear the exhaust scraping along the tarmac. It’s uncomfortable to drive, so you find yourself going slowly, avoiding uneven roads, maybe even preferring to park up altogether because it just feels like too much effort.

You might assume the car is rubbish. Old suspension. Poor design. Bad luck.

But what if, tucked away beneath the floorboards or hidden in the compartment where the spare tyre should be, someone has stashed twenty gold bars?

Gold is valuable. But it is also incredibly heavy.

Why gold?

Because yes – gold is heavy. Incredibly heavy. That’s why it lowers the car. But gold is also valuable. It’s treasure. And that’s the point.

In this metaphor, the gold represents your deep wounds and traumas. Some of them you are aware of. Some of them you’ve completely forgotten. Some may have formed before you had language. Some may have come down the ancestral line. Some may not feel dramatic enough to qualify as “trauma” in your mind, but energetically they are dense.

And density lowers the car…. which lowers your baseline level of consciousness.

When you’re carrying that kind of hidden weight, every small bump in the road feels amplified. Minor life challenges feel disproportionate. You don’t necessarily collapse, but you feel the drag. There’s a heaviness that you can’t quite explain. And often you don’t even know the gold is there.

But once you unpack them, heal them, and release them, what comes out the other side is richness.

Richness in insight.
Richness in self-awareness.
Richness in boundaries.
Richness in relationships.
Richness in self-worth.

That’s gold.

So it isn’t random cargo. It’s hidden treasure you haven’t cashed in yet. Right now, it’s weighing you down. But once you transmute it, it becomes value.

That’s why it’s gold and not, say, a sack of bricks. Bricks just make you heavy. Gold makes you heavy until you refine it.

Space Is Not the Same as Weight

Now let’s play with another layer of the metaphor.

You might open the car door and see that it’s completely full. Someone asks you for a lift and you say, “Sorry, there’s no room.” But what’s actually filling the space?

Is it six other people? That’s heavy.
Is it a boot full of suitcases? Also heavy.

Or is it one enormous inflatable castle that looks dramatic and takes up loads of space but weighs almost nothing?

Energetically, this distinction matters. Not everything that feels big is heavy. Not everything that looks dramatic is dense. And not everything that’s hidden is light. If it’s one enormous inflatable castle, it’ll look dramatic, take up loads of space, but it won’t actually weigh much. The car won’t scrape the road – it’ll just be inconvenient because you can’t see your mirrors.

You might have a loud, surface-level frustration that takes up a lot of mental space but doesn’t actually weigh you down much.

Equally, you might have one quiet, unexamined wound that sits in the background and exerts enormous gravitational pull on your decisions, your reactions, and your capacity. You can be “fine” on the surface and still feel heavy underneath.

And that heaviness doesn’t always look dramatic. Sometimes it just looks like:

  • A plateau

  • A subtle block

  • A reluctance to accelerate

  • A tendency to park up rather than push forward

That’s weight, not lack of strategy. This is why simply knowing your baseline level of consciousness number doesn’t tell the full story. You need to understand what kind of energetic cargo you’re carrying.

You Are Not One Energetic State

Another important piece here is that you are not a single, fixed energetic type.

In my work, I use metaphorical labels – Conker, Washing Ball, Snooker Ball, Bouncy Ball, Glitter Ball – to describe different energetic clusters and how they behave. These aren’t personality types. They are patterns of density and responsiveness.

And they don’t show up uniformly across your life.

You might be a Conker in relationships, easily triggered, guarded, reactive. But in business you might be a Snooker Ball – steady, capable, measured. Around health, perhaps you’re more like a Bouncy Ball, enthusiastic but inconsistent.

Your wounds express themselves differently in different lenses.

Which means your internal garage is not evenly weighted. Certain compartments are heavier than others. Certain parts of your life carry more gold bullion than the rest.

If you only look at your overall baseline, you miss that nuance.

Why You Feel Fine… But Not Thriving

This is where people get confused.

They’ll say, “I’m okay. I’m functioning. I’m not depressed. I’m not in crisis.” And that’s true. On paper, their baseline might suggest things are stable.

But there’s a subtle heaviness. A plateau. A sense that something isn’t flowing.

They want to grow their business, but something stalls. They want to deepen a relationship, but something blocks. They want to take better care of themselves, but something resists.

When that happens, most people assume the issue is tactical.

They think they need a better strategy, a sharper plan, improved branding, stronger boundaries, more discipline, more productivity, a new morning routine – something on the surface that can be adjusted and optimised.

But often, it’s not tactical at all.

It’s gold in the boot.

A wound around visibility affecting business. A wound around trust affecting relationships. A wound around worthiness affecting income. These aren’t obvious. You don’t see them unless you deliberately look through that lens. And because they’re hidden, you assume the problem is external.

You won’t uncover that by tweaking the website or rewriting the to-do list. You uncover it by being willing to look beneath the bonnet and ask a different kind of question.

Looking Beneath the Bonnet

This is why I talk about taking readings through different lenses of your life.

Not just “What is my baseline level of consciousness?” but “What is my baseline level of consciousness around money? Around business? Around my body? Around intimacy? Around visibility?”

Each lens reveals a different energetic configuration. And once you can see it, you have options.

If the car is low because it’s full of inflatable toys, that’s one kind of adjustment. If it’s low because of solid gold bars hidden beneath the floor, that’s another.

Until you look, you’re guessing. And guessing keeps you stuck.

The Treasure You’re Actually Carrying

This is the part I don’t want to skim past, because it is easy to misunderstand.

When we talk about wounds and trauma, the language can feel heavy and negative. It can sound as though we are simply cataloguing damage. And that is not what I am suggesting.

While a wound is unexamined, it exerts weight. It lowers your ride height. It makes the journey bumpier than it needs to be. But once it is explored, processed and integrated, something changes.

What comes out of that process is depth.

It is discernment. It is empathy. It is resilience that is grounded rather than forced. It is clarity that you would not have accessed without that experience.

That is richness.

And richness doesn’t mean piles of cash – although it can certainly support that. It means richer relationships, a richer sense of self, richer boundaries, richer intuition. It means you understand yourself and other people with more nuance and less reactivity.

That is why I chose gold rather than bricks.

Bricks are just heavy.

Gold is heavy until you refine it.

And many of us are walking around weighed down by unrefined treasure.

Raising the Baseline Means Lightening the Load

This isn’t about pretending to be positive. It’s not about chanting your way into a higher frequency. It’s about removing density.

When you clear wounds, when you resolve conflicts, when you release the energetic weight that no longer serves you, the car naturally rises. The suspension adjusts. The ride smooths out.

When this gold is brought into awareness, worked through and integrated, the system naturally lightens. The car sits higher without you having to manually lift it. The suspension adjusts because there is simply less weight pressing it down.

The bumps in the road do not disappear – life will always contain bumps – but they do not reverberate through you in the same way.

You don’t brace for them.
You don’t dread them.
You don’t interpret them as proof that something is wrong with you.

They become part of the terrain rather than confirmation of failure.

If You’re Scraping Along, Check the Boot

If you feel like you’re constantly hitting speed bumps harder than other people do, if growth feels effortful, if certain areas of your life refuse to shift no matter how many tactical tweaks you make, it’s worth asking a different question.

Not “What’s wrong with me?”
But “What am I carrying?”

Because most of the time, it isn’t the car that’s faulty. It’s the hidden bullion.

And once you see it, you can start to remove it.

That’s when the baseline shifts. Not because you forced it upward, but because you finally lightened the load.

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